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Bleah I hate winter.  I missed out on so much of the summer,  I feel gipped.

FINALLY started decorating my apartment.  It takes a while to get the feel of a place.  Hung sari’s over my curtains and tied them, put up my 8×8 foot hanging of Ganesh, my Tibetan prayer flag, a line of Indian elephants marching across the kitchen shelf. My living room is very….colorful.  And eclectic.  That’s what I love about Indian decor, such beautiful bursts of color everywhere they somehow all work with each other.  Color scheme?  Bah.  Kali hanging over my bed, 8×8 foot Ohm hanging I need help putting up.  Candles everywhere.  I even have a “Aum Sweet Aum” sticker on my front door LOL.

I found a brass chandelier with 4 tiers hanging down, each with oblong strips of glass.  I’m going to spray paint it black and then color each glass plate with translucent paint so it will throw colors everywhere.

Now I’m going through pictures and decoupaging about 20 wooden photo frames.  I like my frames to be personalized and themed.

I couldn’t stand having my precious books in boxes anymore, so forget the bookshelves for now.  I unpacked all TWELVE boxes and stacked them against the walls, fiction in the living room, spiritual, writing and poetry in the bedroom.  Seeing them makes me happy.  In fact, I feel all warm and homey whenever I walk in the door.  This is good. My apartment is my sanctuary.

Discovered the Sephora store yesterday and found my mecca. *bows down*  Spent 2 1/2 hours wandering around in wonder.  Came home with a huge basketful of stuff.  Store will be my downfall.  It doesn’t matter I don’t wear makeup a lot of the time, the makeup artist in me still goes “Ooooo must have must have!”  I have bags of makeup under my bathroom sink and just throw them at friends when they come over, they can take whatever they want.

Homeopathic medicine rocks.  I’ve used it twice for a cold and the flu and both times I was better in a day.  Bought a bunch, amazing how well they are working.  Fatigue? Check. Muscle tension?  Check.  Cystitis?  Check.  Anxiousness and stress?  Check.  All from little pellets you let melt under your tongue.

Let’s see what else…..still confused and raw over the J situation.  Removed all traces, felt REALLY angry for a week but there’s still this strong tug.  Something isn’t right.  Blah figure it out Universe!

So many poems and stories whirling around in my head I can’t separate one from the other to write it down.

All for now..back to the crafts.

And now for the SAX

Ahhhh the saxophone…my beautiful beast.  That’s going to be me up there someday!  Here’s 3 rock sax solo’s

More drumming

Here is a “best drummers” starting with Buddy Rich.  He is the fucking MASTER *bows down*

 

Here’s a video of the “best drummers in the world”  While they are hardly that, they are pretty amazing.  Thing is with drumming, you can go as fast as you want, but if you ain’t got no style it ain’t gonna make me groove   Be sure to check out the last drummer Jacob Armen he’s only SEVEN!

 

Drumming

Two drumming legends battle it out on the SammyDavis Jr Show.  I love the respect they have for each other

 

Come

Come sit down beside me, beautiful souls, so that you can feel the Universe, become your true selves, and just be.  My space is open and welcomes you.

 

Pondering Relationships

So I’ve been contemplating romantic relationships.  Having been single for so long I can objectively look back, and also take honest stock of where I stand now.  I’ve thought I’ve been lonely.  I’ve thought I missed intimacy.  I’ve thought I wanted that all consuming soulmate passion.  But when presented with someone’s desire for a connection with me, I freeze up.  I recoil.  Lack of practice? LOL.  Most of my needs are met by my friends.  And passion is fulfilled in many ways.  My art, my love for the world and all people in it, love for myself, etc.

I’m fiercely independent.  I like being accountable to no one but myself.  I don’t want to have conversations about my “feelings” or where our relationship is going.  I don’t want to deal with jealousy or insecurity crap.  I like not having to meet someone else’s expectations.  I like being moody and not having to explain why.  I like not having to fight for the covers.

So I’m kicking the holy triad out the door for a while.  If this soulmate the universe keeps promising is coming ever shows up, all well and good, but I’m not holding my breath and I’m done waiting around.

MishMash

If this works, blog updates should show up on FB with Networked blogs instead of notes.

Everyone’s colds finally caught up with me, woke up feeling like crap.  Downing my homeopathic remedies and Vitamin C and honey like crazy.  Holly and Karley came over tired and hungover and we just crashed out and listened to music.

Halloween weekend was good.  Friday night we went to Ejackulantern at The Bourbon.  Saw The New Values, Fake Shark Real Zombies and The New Heard.  Kevin rocked the house, he has great stge presence.  There were pumpkins everywhere and Kevin was smashing them all and throwing them at us, we got into  great pumpkin throwing fight.  Holly woke up the next morning with pumpkin in her ear LOL.

Saturday I picked up the Munchkin and we goofed around all day.  She absolutely LOVES Holly and Karley, she got into a crazy silly mood and we all regressed to childhood for the afternoon.  Got ready to go to Horror at Neptoon.  I wasn’t really into it, feeling kind of frazzled and stayed outside for most of the first 2 sets, but have to support my boys Thee Manipulators!  Got into the mood, jumped into the mosh pit.  Holly, Karley and I know pretty much all the lyrics, Alex said next show we can come up and be backup singers LOL.  He’s such  a sweetheart.

Hmmm what else…had to gently extricate myself from the Steven situation.  He tried to kiss me when he was leaving last night and I had to do a funky head twist to avoid it LOL.  Talked to him today and explained stuff, he was OK with it.  He’s so childlike.  Such innocence and trust.  We both had the biggest smiles on our faces when we met.  I feel so much love (platonic) and compassion for him.  He brings out the Warrior Healer in me, and woe to anyone who hurts him.

Speaking of love and compassion, I came across a great man named Baraka Kanaan today.  He’s a spiritual leader and spoken word artist.  The imagery he comes up with is incredible.  A Transformational Spoken-Word Alchemist.  He has some great videos on his site, www.dreamingbear.net I was pretty entranced all morning watching them.  Saying so many things I need to hear and integrate into my life.

Finally got all the sound production software I need for the album, the project has officially begun!  I’m having such a blast playing around.

OK very boring post but I’m too zoned to come up with anything profound.  Thoughts and feelings about where I stand with relationships right now are floating through my head,  I’ll have to sleep on it and explore it more tomorrow.

Namaste and goooooooood night

*faceplant*

Boxing

Oh yeah baby I’m starting my training next week!  With my own free personal trainer, who is a professional boxer.  I can’t even fit BOTH hands around his biceps!  I don’t want big muscles, just toned.  And it’s a full body workout.  I have a feeling he’s going to be a strict taksmaster, but that’s what I need.

I’m fast on my feet, competitive, and I can’t wait until I can start sparring.  Fuck the gym and pilates!  I need something that is really going to engage my interest.  There’s a boxing gym 2 blocks from my house, I’m going to have SO MUCH FUN!

Temper tantrum done and Halloween

Ok so I’m over my temper tantrum at the Universe.  As usual, the next two days were filled with messages I needed to hear.  Bought 2 scrolls with teachings from the Dali Lama and was forwarded a video that really struck home.  Trust.  Tenderness. Forgiveness.  Love.  Was it a test?  Did I try too hard and interfere?  I know I need to keep the lesson “surrender and trust” in my head every day.  The universe knows what it’s doing, I need to let it work it’s mojo.

Went to a fabulous show last night, with Fake Shark, New Values, and the Beards.  Had a blast.  3 hours sleep, picking up my Munchkin for the day, then a free concert at Neptoon Records.  I’m going to be a very very tired girl tomorrow.  But I haven’t really celebrated Halloween in a few years so it’s worth it.  Although somehow I managed to spend $100 dollars.  Damn rounds of Tequila shots.  Here’s one of the videos that struck home yesterday.  There’s more on YouTube and the website is http://www.dreamingbear.net/ and http://www.lovevolution.net/