Just when we had given up hope of EVER sleeping more than 4 hours a night again, or having a sex life, or hell even being able to cuddle, Madeline slept from..*drum roll* 8PM to 8AM!!!!!!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!!

Rant

I just read a horrible news story about 3 murdered children. Murdered by their parents. In a horrible and inhumane way. I don’t know how to come to terms with these things anymore. Of course they’ve always bothered me, but since having my own child I am so sensitive to violence. I just don’t understand it. I don’t understand how some people are given children.

Violence against children is one of the things that really shakes up my faith in any sort of religion or “higher purpose”. Some Christians argue that God gave us free will. Bullshit. Where does free will come into play with violence against someone. That child has no choice. It doesn’t have free will. It is an INNOCENT. Any God that can allow these horrible things to happen to children is no God I want any part of.

Other people argue that, as souls, we CHOOSE what is going to happen to us in our lifetime, choose things that are going to help us grow and learn and evolve. What soul would CHOOSE to be born and then, 2 months later, be decapitated and stuffed into a garbage bag. What the hell can you learn from that? It doesn’t ring true for me. It stinks of escapism. Of people wanting to not face up to evil in this world, and making excuses, so that they don’t have to.

I know this is not a popular view, but I think the death penalty needs to be reinstated in Canada, and used a LOT more. If you kill someone, unprovoked, you should be killed. It’s as simple as that for me. If you take it upon yourself to take someones life, to destroy their family, you deserve to have your life taken from YOU. I’m not talking about murder in self-defense. Or a parent who kills someone who raped or killed their child. I’m talking about pre-meditated, sick, sadistic murder. The death penalty is not used on someone who is insane. I say bullshit again. There is no cure for being a sociopath. Sure, they don’t know right from wrong, but SO WHAT? They still committed the crime. They are never going to make up for what they did. They are never going to feel sorry for it. You think Charles Manson has remorse? Of course not. He’s a sick evil bastard who would do it all over again in a heartbeat. Why should people be paying for him to sit in prison for the rest of his life?

Our criminal system is a joke. It obviously doesn’t work for many offenders. The extremely high reoffense levels are proof of that. Sentences are a joke. Two street racers hit a poor women and kill her, and they get HOUSE ARREST for 2 years with GYM PRIVILEDGES???? And they are LAUGHING about it as they walk out of court. It makes me sick. There is no personal responsibility in our society.

How do others feel about this? How do you deal with what goes on in our world? How do you come to terms with it?

I just want to take all the hurt babies in the world.

Mothers, or lack thereof

My mother is visiting from Alberta this week. She’s already driving me nuts. I get my hopes so high everytime that it will be different, and it never is. I have always been the parent in our relationship. She doesn’t have a maternal bone in her body. She has the mentality of a 3 year old much of the time. I want a Mother!!!! A proper Dad would be nice, too, as long as I’m wishing I feel the loss even more keenly since having my own child.

Going to watch Alias and drool over Jennifer Garner…yumm!