*yawn*

Another sleepless night….lately no matter how many teas and sleep aids I take I just can’t relax and get to sleep.

This weekend has been one of extremes for me.  Happiness at meeting some kindred spirits.  Disappointment at hopes/expectations not met.  Asserting myself.  Crushing depression and anxiety about my mother.  Drinking more on Friday than I ever have in my life and being hungover the rest of the weekend.  Happiness at a hope coming true.  Enjoying realizing how much more open and outgoing I am now.  Wanting to retreat into my cocoon.  Daydreaming and hoping but trying not to have expectations.

Let’s see what the week brings.

I NEED SLEEP

Anyone out there in the blogsphere have some tried and true remedies for insomnia?  This is really affecting my life.  I’ve gone without sleep for 40+ hours twice in the past month.  I’m taking Valerian and Melatonin but I find they only work for a few hours.  I’m lethargic, cranky, and constantly have a sore throat.

Finally got to sleep at 1 am, only to be woken up at 4 by a woman screaming.  Now this isn’t the best neighborhood so it’s not unusual to hear people fighting, but she was letting out ear piercing screams, and I could hear men shouting…so I dragged myself out of bed, called 911, blearily told them what was going on, and she said a lot of people had called and the car was right around the corner.

Blearily crawl back into bed, close eyes, wait expectantly and…..nothing.  Once I’m awake it’s almost impossible for me to get back to sleep.

*face plant*