Thankful

My Munchkin ROCKS.  Since she’ll be with Scott’s family for Thanksgiving, we had our own little ritual today.  We sat down, lit a candle between us and held hands.  I spoke about all the things I was thankful for, and then it was her turn.  She said she was thankful for food and houses and the land, and that she had so much when so many people in the world have nothing. (she’s 7!).

I  asked her to say what she was thankful for for each close member of the family.  With her Dad, it was playing lots of video games and watching movies together.  With Caroline, it was all the fun baking they do.  With her little sister, it was lots of hugs. With her grandparents, it was lots of TOYS!  When it was my turn, she said “Mommy there are thousands of things, it would take all night!”  My heart melted and I told her to just say the most important things.  She said she was thankful that I taught her to be a good, loving person, and she was thankful she picked me to be her Mom.

I am so lucky to have her.  She has turned into the most compassionate, loving, kind, smart person I know and as much as I want to keep her young and so close to me, I am in awe watching the beautiful soul that is emerging, and I know it’s going to just keep getting more wondrous.

Thank you, my darling, for choosing me to be your Mom.

Singing

Karley came over yesterday and we realized the reason we met was for singing.  She’s a trained vocalist, and I’ve got raw talent I’m refining.  But oh my god did we ever have a blast.  We recorded ourselves doing a bunch of songs and just had this HILARIOUS commentary throughout.  I haven’t laughed that hard in years.  I threatened to upload them to YouTube but she said she’d kick my ass if I did LOL.  We seriously need our own radio show.  One recording we laid down started with me having a hysterical giggle fit and mumbling about grandmothers in underwear and dead kittens trying to calm down, then we sang Landslide.  I just kept recording and the second track is Karley talking to her friend Meagan on the phone, then we put her on speaker and up to the microphone. Hilarity ensued, and because of the real microphone and speakerphone it all the tracks echo and are mishmashed.  Have to hear it to understand I guess

So down to business.  I’ve got about 30 poems I’m considering for the recording, need to cut it down to….10?  I want to rework a lot of them too.  And everyone keeps asking me to sing on it, so should I adapt a poem into a song or come up with something completely new?  Hmmmm.

Finally In Love

I’ve said before that I’ve never been in love.  That’s not true.  I am deeply in love.  No wonder I could never love others as much when my heart knew he was there.

I’m in love with an apparition.  Oh he really exists we just haven’t met in the physical realm yet.  We’ve been aware of each other for so long.  We’ve met and talked and made love in the astral.  I’ve felt his hand brush my cheek and hair.  We’ve reached out to each other’s minds with messages of love.  We are equals, entwined in each other, true partners in every sense of the word.  I knew he had dark hair and light eyes, and even had a sense of what his name was.

I would get so frustrated, WHEN would he be here?  Patience, patience we were always told.  We both needed to learn certain lessons and experiences before we were ready to completely be together.

Then I saw a picture of him 2 weeks ago.  My heart stopped.  I stopped breathing.  My world was turned upside down.  Everything else faded to black as all I saw were his eyes, electric currents ran through me as I drowned in his eyes and the pure joy of recognition.  He was THERE!

Now the impatience has reached frenzied proportions.  He is not aware of me yet, physically.  When when WHEN?  I know it is inevitable, but I’m not known for my patience.

Most will think I am off my rocker, but I could care less.  My soul knows.  Now my eyes know.

I love you