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So I’m sloooooowly figuring all this out. There’s SO much you can do with this site! It’s going to be fun. Looked into exporting my LJ entries but you can only do a month at a time. Considering they go back to 2002, that’s going to take a long time. Ugh. Although there’s huge gaps where I didn’t blog, so it shouldn’t be THAT much. I’m just lazy. And then I have to categorize them??? Hrmm.

Got to see Madeline today, her other front tooth was half hanging off, she could twist it all the way around, it was cute. She wouldn’t let me just give it a pull and get it over with though.

Poor baby, this is so hard on her. She needs her Mother. Every time she cries or gets upset about something, Scott reprimands her with “That’s nothing to cry about Madeline”. Let the kid express her feelings! It’s often related to something deeper. Today as Scott was trying to get her out the door she started to cry and looked up at me and said “Mommy I don’t want you to die”. It broke my heart. She’s been through so much turmoil lately that she’s desperate for anything stable to hang on to. She even flipped out about me wanting to change my hair color and paint the kitchen cupboards.

And Scott parents her when she’s here, reprimanding her for this or that. Piss off buddy! This is MY daughter, she is in MY house, and when she is I will do the parenting, not you. Grrrrr

*sigh* parenting feels like one big guilt trip sometimes. I can’t wait for this court case to be over so we can go back to normal.