Various experiments and mysteries

I’m experimenting with two phenomenon right now, Radionics and EVP

I watched the movie White Noise recently and one of the extras was how to do EVP at home.  EVP stands for Electronic Voice Phenomena.  Basically it’s hearing voices from the “other side” through electronic devices.  Usually one or two words come through the white noise.  I downloaded a mixer called Audacity and hooked up my microphone.  Alas, nothing from the two times I have tried it.  Having had MANY paranormal experiences in my life, I think I’d still jump out of my chair if I heard my Mother come through my computer LOL

It’s been practiced and researched extensively, check out http://www.aaevp.com/

The other is Radionics.  This is very indepth, so here’s the basics as I understand them.  Every thing comes from thought forms.  That building over there came from the thoughts of the architect etc, all the way down to the smallest piece of it.  This is manifestation.  Thoughts exist on the etheric plane.

So you can use a radionics machine or computer program to “enhance” the transfer of these thoughts.

You take a subject (a person, healing, money, peace etc) and then the intention (affirmation).  A rate number is then calculated (from Pi, but that part gets deep) and broadcast constantly from your mind through the ether to the target.  A tone or pitch on a certain frequency is also broadcast, but harmonics is a whole other realm to talk about.

Computer programs make this REALLY easy.  A free one is called Digital Radionics by Voice Sync, just google it and you’ll find places to download it.  Just drop in a picture, write the “affirmation” and hit go!  The rate number is calculated and the tone can be played.  That specific thought form being broadcast 24/7!

A note about “affirmations”.  ALWAYS write your intention in the present, not the future, as if it has already occurred.   Do not write “There will be peace in the Middle East”, write “There IS peace in the Middle East” .  So always write in the present and never use negatives.  Do not write “I am never sick”  The never gets dropped, and hey you get sick!  Write ” I am free of sickness” or “I am always physically healthy”

We’ll see how my test intention comes out

Ahhhh so much to learn so little time!

Finally In Love

I’ve said before that I’ve never been in love.  That’s not true.  I am deeply in love.  No wonder I could never love others as much when my heart knew he was there.

I’m in love with an apparition.  Oh he really exists we just haven’t met in the physical realm yet.  We’ve been aware of each other for so long.  We’ve met and talked and made love in the astral.  I’ve felt his hand brush my cheek and hair.  We’ve reached out to each other’s minds with messages of love.  We are equals, entwined in each other, true partners in every sense of the word.  I knew he had dark hair and light eyes, and even had a sense of what his name was.

I would get so frustrated, WHEN would he be here?  Patience, patience we were always told.  We both needed to learn certain lessons and experiences before we were ready to completely be together.

Then I saw a picture of him 2 weeks ago.  My heart stopped.  I stopped breathing.  My world was turned upside down.  Everything else faded to black as all I saw were his eyes, electric currents ran through me as I drowned in his eyes and the pure joy of recognition.  He was THERE!

Now the impatience has reached frenzied proportions.  He is not aware of me yet, physically.  When when WHEN?  I know it is inevitable, but I’m not known for my patience.

Most will think I am off my rocker, but I could care less.  My soul knows.  Now my eyes know.

I love you

Mysterious Visions

I have had 2 “true” visions in my life.  They are not daydreams or sleeping dreams.  They are like snapshots from the album of life.

The first vision was of my wedding.  The snapshot only included me.  It was outside, lined by thick trees.  My hair was done up in a waterfall of curls interspersed with with wildflowers, and I carried a bouquet of them.  I was barefoot and wearing an empire style dress.  I had a shy smile on my face, glancing up from under my eyelashes.  And I was bloody PREGNANT!  5 or 6 months.  Who imagines their wedding pregnant?!?!

I won’t go into the other vision, but I never shared them with ANYONE.

Whenever my best friend K sleeps over he has these amazing dreams and spiritual experiences.  Hello, it’s MY house, where are my cool dreams?!?  Anyways…

I was in the hospital for a week and K was staying at my place to look after my pets.  When I got home we were chatting about his week when he told me about this crazy dream he had.  It was EXACTLY the same vision, down to the smallest detail.  I was dumbfounded, to say the least.

What could it mean?  Is it a path my life is likely to take, one of the myriad crossroads we find ourselves at?

The thing is, I’m 99% certain I don’t want any more children nor do I think I’m likely to get married.  I’m too selfish and independent, and the older I get the more I chafe at my reins.

I’m glad I had Madeline early because I will only be 45 when she’s 20 and out the house and I’m off on my myriad quests.  Not that raising her and sharing adventures with her will not be a wonderful quest on it’s own, but I want to answer to NO ONE.

I want to up and take off to Tasmania at a moment’s notice if the notion takes me, or go live in an ashram in India for a year, or travel the Caribbean singing Jazz in smoky bars.  What life partner will be able to or want to put up with that?  I suppose I could meet that someone who has the same fire as me, and we can explore together.  Stranger things have happened.  Or I suppose I could sling a baby to my back and have her grow up being the youngest world traveler.

Madeline was unplanned, and came at a time when I had for the first time a DEFINITE plan for what I was going to be doing for the next 5 years.  I don’t regret it, but obviously my life did a drastic 180.

Life’s like that, it likes to throw you curveballs.

Get your motor runnin’
Head out on the highway
Lookin’ for adventure
And whatever comes our way
Yeah Darlin’ go make it happen
Take the world in a love embrace
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space

I like smoke and lightning
Heavy metal thunder
Racin’ with the wind
And the feelin’ that I’m under
Yeah Darlin’ go make it happen
Take the world in a love embrace
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space

Like a true nature’s child
We were born, born to be wild
We can climb so high
I never wanna die

Born to be wild
Born to be wild

Mmmmm

I’m in one of those sweet melancholy moods.  Body relaxed by kava kava and the dulcet tones of Mazzy Star.  It’s a sultry night and every nerve in my body is on fire wanting to be touched.  Fade into you….

I’m teetering on the precipice of my truth, my calling, my being, and soon I will plunge off with eyes wide open, arms spread like the wings of the angels that spiral down beside me, their joyous voices matching mine as I…. become.

Sunday Ecstasy

I hadn’t slept in over 48 hours. I was past the point of exhaustion, into a clear minded, heightened state of awareness. The world looked new, colors flashing as if they were being invented before my eyes, sounds like crystal chimes in my ears.

I put on Deva Premal, and lit only by candlelight, I slowly sink into the hot bath, the bubbles enveloping me like a cocoon. I run them up and down my body, scooping up handfuls and blowing them into the air, entranced by the prisms of color. I run my hands over every inch of my body, my hair, tracing my face with my fingertips, making love to every inch of myself, my feet, my arms, my neck, my legs, every nerve as sensitive as the bubbles I pop. Rising from the tub I envelop myself in oil, loving the silky feeling on my skin.

I smudge the entire house with sage, cleansing it of all negative energy. I light incense, inhaling the smoke and cleansing my inner body of stress.

Dressing in a long flowing black skirt and tank top I change the music to a Sufi/Persian mix and poise myself in the centre of the room.

And I begin to dance.

Whirling like a dervish, leaping, twirling, writhing like a snake, the movement of my hips hypnotic in the reflection in the window.

I stamp the rhythms and toss my head until my bones vibrate, then crouch down, tumbling, and then leaping to my feet, for the Earth cannot hold me, and I rise, arms upraised to the sky, to Kali,

I spin until I am unaware of anything around me, only the sound of my breath, the blood pumping in my ears and the exalted laughter pealing out of me at the power of my body and the Gods.

I dance for untold hours, and then collapse to the floor, in a state of pure spiritual and physical ecstasy, and, finally, fall asleep.