Come

Come sit down beside me, beautiful souls, so that you can feel the Universe, become your true selves, and just be.  My space is open and welcomes you.

 

Temper tantrum done and Halloween

Ok so I’m over my temper tantrum at the Universe.  As usual, the next two days were filled with messages I needed to hear.  Bought 2 scrolls with teachings from the Dali Lama and was forwarded a video that really struck home.  Trust.  Tenderness. Forgiveness.  Love.  Was it a test?  Did I try too hard and interfere?  I know I need to keep the lesson “surrender and trust” in my head every day.  The universe knows what it’s doing, I need to let it work it’s mojo.

Went to a fabulous show last night, with Fake Shark, New Values, and the Beards.  Had a blast.  3 hours sleep, picking up my Munchkin for the day, then a free concert at Neptoon Records.  I’m going to be a very very tired girl tomorrow.  But I haven’t really celebrated Halloween in a few years so it’s worth it.  Although somehow I managed to spend $100 dollars.  Damn rounds of Tequila shots.  Here’s one of the videos that struck home yesterday.  There’s more on YouTube and the website is http://www.dreamingbear.net/ and http://www.lovevolution.net/

Streams of consciousness

Confused.  I knew as soon as I saw you that you were the one haunting me all these years, how could you not RECOGNIZE?  Crazy dreams, tossing and turning all night.  I cried for you for the first time in 3 years.  Holding Madeline, burying my face in her neck and holding her tightly.  You are growing so fast, where did my baby go? Immense pride at the person you are becoming.  It is beautiful.  You are beautiful.  Mosh pit.  Props to the guy making sure I didn’t get knocked down.  Pushing him onto the speaker at the end of the show and giving him the longest, most sensual and erotic kiss in his young life.  Winking and saying “seeya!”  afterwards.  Meeting wonderful new friends.  Inspiration uncoiling and filling me.  Longing.  Feeling like the universe is playing a trick on me yet having to trust.  I want you.  I need you.  Haven’t I waited long enough?

Poetry

Is this song that I hear through the wind in the trees
Some message from the the Universe is It talking to me?

The most difficult part of this journey I’ve made
Has been the expression of live as I’ve played
Ever the fool or the wise man’s trade.

Footstep by footstep mark lines on a page,
over the rounds of war and peace;
Obvious choices of words from the sage
tell in the final poetic release.

Suffering, happiness, laughter and tears,
told in free form or the rhythm of rhyme,
evolve from a feeling whose essence is clear,
painstakingly etched in the language of time.

Of all the emotions and feelings I’ve known,
first came love, then came the poem.

My soul is a happy, creative bright drop
of love in the ocean of the Universe, and,
using expression, it climbs to the top,
leaving poems on the path that it treads.

Mrown

I want to be beneath you…

feeling your warm hands caress my body

gently touching and stroking

your face close to mine

your hot sweet breath washing over me

your soft lips touching mine

running my hands down your back

feeling your skin move and shiver under my touch

feeling you deep inside me…

moving gently, touching my soul

gazing into your eyes and losing myself there…

becoming one

Anybody read this thing?

I write this mostly for myself, I’m not interested in a large reader base.  I know which friends read, but I see a lot of others out there on blogstats.

So please say hello, I don’t bite unless you ask nicely

Yay!

I can’t wait for the Bonfire Festival! www.bonfirefestival.com

Southwestern BC’s 5th Annual homegrown music & camping festival featuring some of live music’s finest acts in an intimate, beautiful, fun & family friendly setting. Every year an eclectic & amazing collection of acts spanning the genres of funk, folk, afrobeat, roots, rock, reggae, jam, jazz & bluegrass come together for 3 magical days to celebrate life, friendships & LIVE MUSIC!!!

The lineup looks great….

Time to bring the hippy out! LOL

Trying to find a way to get there though…this is when I really miss my car *mutter*

Per the last post

If you read my post “Loss of Innocence”, sorry I pulled it.  It was just too personal and vulnerable.

Awwwww

I’m sad there won’t be another Pemberton Music Festival this year.  Hearing it will be on next summer though.  They DID have a lot of kinks to work out, but it was still great.  Finally got to see NIN live, Tom Petty is a consummate performer,  Coldplay was OK and didn’t even bother will Jay-Z.  But  got to hear lots of  great indie bands.  Here’s a couple pics,

And here’s some pics from early March from the Faeries and Fools festival.  It was bloody COLD up there.  I’m the one with the dark hair.  And some with my goofy friends.

Finally In Love

I’ve said before that I’ve never been in love.  That’s not true.  I am deeply in love.  No wonder I could never love others as much when my heart knew he was there.

I’m in love with an apparition.  Oh he really exists we just haven’t met in the physical realm yet.  We’ve been aware of each other for so long.  We’ve met and talked and made love in the astral.  I’ve felt his hand brush my cheek and hair.  We’ve reached out to each other’s minds with messages of love.  We are equals, entwined in each other, true partners in every sense of the word.  I knew he had dark hair and light eyes, and even had a sense of what his name was.

I would get so frustrated, WHEN would he be here?  Patience, patience we were always told.  We both needed to learn certain lessons and experiences before we were ready to completely be together.

Then I saw a picture of him 2 weeks ago.  My heart stopped.  I stopped breathing.  My world was turned upside down.  Everything else faded to black as all I saw were his eyes, electric currents ran through me as I drowned in his eyes and the pure joy of recognition.  He was THERE!

Now the impatience has reached frenzied proportions.  He is not aware of me yet, physically.  When when WHEN?  I know it is inevitable, but I’m not known for my patience.

Most will think I am off my rocker, but I could care less.  My soul knows.  Now my eyes know.

I love you